I Can’t Go To Sleep

August 1st, 2005


The past 2 days have been so fucking routine. I wake up around 10 or 11 and do some shell programming then eat then debug C code some more. Then if I’m up for it I might actually leave my apartment for a moment to get Subway or Starbucks….This is all while listen to a random mix of mp3’s ranging from Brazilian music to Southern Hip Hop to obscure Japanese instrumental experimentation ish.

I don’t watch TV, so the internet is my entertainment. Bittorrents supplys me with all the subtitled anime I need. Online Hip Hop forums supply me with the latest leaked tracks. Maybe 300 years from now this will help some anthropologist understand a 22 year old non-white male from 2005 just as japanese poetry gave insight into the everyday lifes of Samurai warriors.

Then to make me more pessimistic about the future I ran across this website that talked about common interview questions for computer science undergrads. I looked over it and I ascertained that I knew a good portion of the answers granted time, but if you were to ask me on the spot I would probably have a hard time explaining it succinctly in a nerve racking interview situation….

All of a sudden I’m started to despise isolation that programming can bring about. One of my good friends whom was a computer science major briefly told me he quit just because of the antisocial affliction it brought about. When you think about it, it’s a very selfish act!

Consider that you are manipulating a computer to do exactly what you want it to do and nothing else! If one was to treat people that they would get the label of being insensitive to others opinions and thoughts. But hey, this is a science right? It’s supposed to be masculine!


July 26th, 2005

Daydreaming (Killa Style!)

So I sit here at midnight about to start this allele parsing programming for my Professor’s research….I’m wondering what is chick I’m seeing is thinking. Early today she showed up at my place unexpectedly with the premise of picking up some earring she left here bedside a week ago. I’m sure it was innocent enough, but I found myself shook with fear for a while after she dropped by. What if I had someone over!? I’ve been with this chick for a little over a month and uncharacteristically I really enjoy spending time with her.

Unfortunately I can’t escape my womenizing past. Despite this girl being bangin’ IMO, I still flirt with other chicks just out of……insecurity? The dualism of physical and mental, sex and emotions, is very clear cut for me. However, just now I’m feeling like I’m have sex with someone I actually like. I hope I’m not becoming too soft….(no homo)

New Blog, New People, New Money

July 25th, 2005

So I’ve switched to the cookie cutter design of WordPress! In the near I should be personalizing the aesthetics more to my liking. Anyways at this particular moment in time I’m contemplating what digital camera I should “purchase”. By this time next week I should be in possession of a 5+ Megapixel camera that will buttress the many entries in this blog.

Moreover I will probably be reviewing Albums more often so look for that. Due to the fact that I’m on the job search right now I might have to slow down on explicit detail of certain situations.

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The End?

July 22nd, 2005

I need a new layout to correspond to changes in my life such as graduating college and shit so expect a different design soon!


One Day I’m Gonna Make A Movie About This

July 12th, 2005

I find myself not making entries because I’m against whining about my personal problems. It seems in bad taste. If I was some Live Journal whore I would probably have 3 or 4 entries a day. Anyways I have do have something on my mind right now and it deals with women and myself (a reoccuring theme in my life). But I won’t discuss it in this mode of anxiety I’m in right now. But I will give you background.

I’m a whore. Plain and simple. Once one reaches my levels you feel ashamed to even be with a girl. I’ve come to the conclusion that I act this way because I feel I’m in control of the situation and can’t be “hurt” (as women say) :keke.

Consequently I suck at maintaining relationships not based around sex. Society makes one feel that if they can’t accomplish this, then they are a fail. Why is this?

Ok I lied. I’m going to talk about this situation. I’ve been seeing this girl for a few weeks now while still rotating my regular “starters”. I actually like this new girl and the feeling seems mutual. Despite my experience in being able to get in girls pants, I feel amateurish when deciding my next move on this girl.

I hate having to constant have someone on my mind, and I feel as though I spend a large amount of time questioning my every move on her. Will she call back? Is she mad at me? What is she thinking!? These thoughts have flooded my mind recently.

We had sex for the first time this past weekend. It took 4 weeks, the longest I’ve waited on a girl. Now it seems things are supposed to change. Yet I’m still playing this mind games with her. Waiting days to call, or cancelling plans.

Fortunately good ol’ programming gets my mind off of such debauchery. Once again strictly off the top. Peace!

Raspberry Juice

June 5th, 2005

It seems I start an entry then, just save it and never publish. That’s why I’m giving this entry a flavorful name that why I’ll be more inclined to complete it. Let’s begin the business before the pleasure.

I’ve recently been datamining the movie data of IMDb.com. Despite the acheivement of the IMDB I’ve found that it data rich, but information poor. Only 1.3% of the movies on IMDB have useful information. I’ll get into this more when I finish this project. My preliminary results are pretty intuitive (e.g. rental sales are usually 35-50% of theater sales), but I’m including more attributes and should hopefully have some really useful information I can sell to Paramount :biggrin

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Top Ten Anticipated Albums of 2005

April 26th, 2005

Ghostface Killah and MF Doom – Untitled Album
Juelz Santana – Untitled Album
Raekwon the Chef - Cuban Linx Part 2
Young Gunz – Untitled Album
AOTP – The Torture Papers
J-Zone and Celph Titled – Untitled Album
Nas – Untitled Album
RZA – The Cure (been on the list since 1997 :rolleyes)
DJ Muggs and GZA- Unititled Album
The Clipse – Hell Hath No Mercy

I’m kinda late this year with the list.


April 18th, 2005

It’s been over a month and I’m back. Hmmm what have I been doing? Being a whore, and taking classes, and playing soccer and working out.

I guess it doesn’t help that my laptop harddrive broke down a month and a half ago and I still haven’t gotten a new harddrive. Is it worth it to spend $75 on a 20 gig harddrive for a 7 year old laptop or just save up for a new one. I’m still deciding. But anyways that has derailed most of my web production.

I should be updating more regularly now. In the mean time listen to this song here

The 1980’s Destiny’s Child?

You see, the ‘S’ is for super,
and the ‘U’ is for unique
The ‘P’ is for perfection
and you know that we are freaks :hsugh
The ‘E’ is for exotic,
and the ‘R’ is for raps
So tell those nosy people just to stay the hell back.


March 15th, 2005

I’m done with 2 of my 3. All I can say is that the length of my CS Final was quite outrageous :surprised. I don’t know my grade yet, but I’m sure I’ll need to take the option oral exam which my Professor so kindly offered us.

BTW I just found out I have 2 gigs of space webspace instead of 200mb. My incompetent host failed to update my account for the past several months.

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Technical Difficulties

March 7th, 2005

I dunno what can I say. It’s been hectic…..on all fronts. I wish I could articulate it all right now but I question my own true intentions when doing that. You’ll probably see my pre-wrtten back-entries popping up soon. Anyways it’s deadweek and I’m supposed to be studying for finals so peace.